Tuesday, February 23, 2010

When all things fail, He don’t

     Yeah yeah, that’s a cheesy tagline stolen from G.I Joe but it holds true to me… No matter what happens in life, the good, the bad, and.. the very very bad, I know I could always fall back on the one thing that never change.. Sigh.. Am in a low pit in life right now where nothing seems to be right and everything seems to be so wrong.. I need more love and attention, ppl!! Lol... (hmm, shouldn’t laugh there…) I want the time to turn back, I want my mistakes wiped off, I want, I want, I want… In the end, it doesn’t really matter, it’s still all about me huh?? Sighs again… 2009 was a bad year for me and 2010 is not looking that great right now.. Hopefully it’ll turn out to be wonderful soon…
     On another irrelevant note, a life of sacrificial love and not convenience… That’s how I wanna live my life these days.. It’s gonna be a tough ride uphill but that’s the way I want it should live…. So yup.. May all of you have a great year ahead too ok?? God bless!!

Monday, February 15, 2010

Happy CNY peeps!!!

Heya everyone!! How did you celebrate CNY this year?? Mine went by just like that….I mean, in conjunction with the previous post, I could only say…I’m so old!! When did I stop feeling all excited for CNY?? Instead, I’m going online on the 2nd day of CNY for almost the whole day… Man, that sounds pathetic… All my cousins are either married, working or studying somewhere far and won’t be back for CNY or they just simply lost interest in gatherings… ARGH…. Totally nostalgic right now… Miss the time we run around trees and jump into ravines and cook leaves and flowers acting like we were preparing a royal feast… Haha… Just kidding, I didn’t do that when I’m young, and no, I don’t do that now either… Sheesh… =p

And oh, btw, my whole family and I are crazy about this Korean series called “Queen Seon Duk”… My dad watched it with us till 2.30am and said it’s still early and to continue on with the show… Lol.. My dad is such a cutie, physically and literally!! So yup, leave me a comment on your celebration!! You know I know what you did last CNY!! Hehe….

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Worn out

I’m old… Or at least not as young as I used to be.. (like duh you may say, but still…) Here’s what happened after my exams…

1. I sprained my ankle for no reason whatsoever.. No vigilant active sports from a strong and energetic me, no almost-tripping-and-falling from a clumsy yet cute young girl, no skipping along a rough terrain from an eager to try out new experiences/ road-curious girl.. I just sprained it.. Full stop.. Not during walking, not during running,  but during sitting.. During just SITTING I said.. Should I cry or what?? lol…

2. I’m tired. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally.. Nothing these days evoke much emotions from me.. Be it exams or holidays or religious spats in our peaceful nation or just plain daily routine.. I’m tired.. I don’t have the energy to fight nor speak out anymore.. Learnt my lesson the hard way?? Maybe.. Gained sudden wisdom?? Hmm, probably.. Lost the spark and energy? Most likely.. But lose hope and faith?? To that I’ll say never, never and still never.. (Hence Gerv, I’m equivalent to no expression now..)

3. I give up on reading the newspaper.. The headlines, yes.. The world news, yes.. The state of our country and the rising crime numbers?? That’s where I’ve given up.. I mean, it’s bad enough just as it is without me reading them and feed more emotions into the current situation.. Hence, I’ve given up on reading them anymore.. The only thing I would do is to pray for the nation, it won’t help one single eensy, weensy, tiny little bit to be agitated nor to start supporting groups.. I stand for peace. That’s all. To fight to get peace? I think that’s just plain silly.. So, sorry people if I do not understand the need to be in groups on Facebook declaring support for whatever reason or group cause to me, it still does not help one bit..

Hence, I’ve devoted myself to drama, game and variety what-not shows.. Be it Korean, English or Chinese, I’d feed my brain silly with them.. Total tv/computer addict now.. One day without some sorta show input makes me have withdrawal symptoms so… Ciaoz!! *Runs off to watch more Korean show* lol!